EnJoYiNg LiFe

durin e wkends life is sure gd ...
skip one dae of work juz to enjoy life ..
on fri went out to catch a midnight show what happen in Vegas
it sure was a nice show but thn some1 juz fell aslp in e middle of e show
=.= sian
after tt went to fren hse to continue watch some shows n drinkin ar
a bottle of white wine which cost $158 doesnt reali taste veri gd oso
tt all i can comment
sat afternoon was e time i had breakfast n e drinkin continue on e time
tis time it was beer VB n sol
nite time went to bugis to meet some fren
n thn it was drivin to sentosa to a private club
it was one 15 marina cove
e place was like so so so nice even toilet have TV n sofa
e pub ther was quite quiet
it was veri relaxin ther
had some finger food ther n i had a blue lagoon
by e time we left it was early 12am
n thn we went to st james power station
1st time ther was not too bad
but it was damn crowded n e parkin lots r all taken up
hav to go rounds before we could settle down
1st stop was e power house n i had volka all e way abt 1 cup n 2 shots
n thn it was e dance floor
dancin ther sure was fun wif all e music around
hahaaha ....
next we went to dragonfly
ther it was all chinese music n i tink it not so excitin
next we went to tiger beer ther if i not wrong
but i tink e best is power house
by tt time it was abt 330 n it was hm sweet hm
lucky thing is tt
i didnt hav to pay a single cent
fren was drivin so no nid public transport
n e best thing is tt i was not drunk
no pics tis time =(
hp no batt sia sad case ar ....
life is great ....

NeW eXpErIeNcEs

last weekend i spend a very fun & interesting wk ...
went drinking twice in a wk
spending like mad juz on dinner alone
n .... some thing tt i will not state here
but lucky thing is tt i am not e 1 who is paying ....
haha =)
my life is going way out of hand oso
work not done here n ther
not reali interested in doing e work oso
deadline coming on e way
OMG
im so dead already ....

will add pics at e next post me at e pub.

WhAt WrOnG wIf U

huh what wrong
onli when u nid mi thn u find mi
wat do u tink i am
nw it is u in e wrong not mi
n u dun put e blame on mi k
im not threating u or wat
i hav patience too
but u hav used up all my patience n it has reach its limit
at least i noe sumthing thn i wont feel tt im in e wrong place
but noe all u hav given mi is e all e wrong stuffs
n tt all i get
tt e ideas u set in mi so i can onli blame u thn
i tink tt im being treated worse than a normal fren
u shld noe tis i tink
u better wake up
f*

CoLd WaR

Days has since pass by
nw it wks comin by
ltr wat will it be ....

iszit feelings faded or has everything change in a blink of an eye
paths different footsteps taken change our life
im in my world
ur in ur world
drifting further till i cant feel, i cant see, i cant do anything

somehow i feel tt im numb already
everything is juz fine to mi in anyway
i dun feel like chasing already
i feel tt tiredness has taken over mi
stopping mi in my own tracks
juz wanting to rest down n enjoy my own scenery

2nD dAe At ScH

it seem tt holidaes juz pass in an eye time
e nightmare is beginning to get more serious each time
headache startin, not enough slp all e time, so every1 beware
e tired girl is on e run again
mahahahaah .....
how am i gona survive in tis situation man
drying in e big desert
words pounding mi
argh ....
dieing again once more

HaBiT

it all been so strange to me these days
juz found out tt time goes real slow these days
too slow tt i muz say
sumtimes i cant reali stand it anymore
iszit tt habit tt cant b maintain tt makes time goes slow
mayb ba...
been questionin myself alot but these days oso
wat can i do
i oso nt sure abt tt le
all things r gettin all too confusin le
juz as if they r all being blended
cant b separated ....
is ther any way to cure myself
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still searching
somewher out ther .......

An EnD a StArT

i tink it reali time for mi to cool down for tis period of time le ...
nid to set my goals so tt i can b on tracks ..
nid ta sit back n tink wat i nid ta do
steps by steps le ..
tink im gg too fast le ba
nid to slow down a bit le ...
anyway all it takes is juz time ba
i tink ...
time to tink
time to act
all these muz b at e perfect timing ...
for things in life to go on smoothly ..
mi suddenly tink so much abt life sia ..
strange for mi to do sumthing like tt huh ...
e usual carefree mi muz change le la to a ... more serious person le ba
i tink tis sentence muz b install into my mind tis instance le
which is .... tink b4 u act
such a simple sentence which i keeps on forgetting every nw n thn ..
serious liao
nid a plan le ....
muahahahaha.........

WaT hApPeN tO mI

strange feelings i gt these days
uncontrollable
dun reali feel like doin anthin these days
no mood?
i oso hav no ans for myself
but these days i feel my heart all being cramp up
cant find peace within
wat can i do to heal my strange illness
is ther reali a ans for tis
haven been able to find one since a long time ago
y cant i been able to accept anyone
iszit him onli
if i'm able mayb i will not b here
nt knowin wat to do
clueless abt wat will happen in e next minute
fear tt sumthin will juz happen
these duno juz leave mi hangin ther
tink i'm gg die heartache any moment
will i?
i wana breakaway from ther stupid stuffs....

SoUr & BitTeR

It valentine day already ...
one yr has since past by ..
e day i once longing it to cum by
e day nw i hated e most
I hated seein couple all around when it cum to tis day
coz i nt fated to celebrate tis day
i juz wan everyone to b e as mi
even though tis may seen selfish
but i noe mani who r in e same state as me will tink tis way rite?
i hate him even more nw
i duno even noe wat am i to him
a toy to play when it free time for him?
or juz some junks waitin to b thrown away?
iszit e time nearin or iszit juz mi?
things has since become more & more complicated
n i reali hate tis


wat has i become to....

DaY aT hOmE

nv go out todae at all becoz of sumone
who say dun wan to disturb my life
but nw wat happen again
cum here to c if i die already iszit ....


i haven die yet
not yet
revenge muz be taken
hatred has already fill mi
it all too late already
everything will nt be e same once more

PaNdOrA bOx

wish i could place everything in e pandora box
thn nth will be left of mi to tink abt
a carefree mi tt was in e past
nw a different mi
i dun even noe y im doin all tis
wat is all tis for ....


but still ther no ans to mi own qns ...
so mani qns ther but no ans to it
all left is juz question marks
how i hope for sumone to pick mi up from wher i fallen off
is tis a dream tt is MI
i duno ...
how i hope i could kill him nw stab him till i could nt
my hands full of his red blood
i nid a knife to cure myself
but tis i so stupid ...


e person who should die is him

JuZ aNoThEr DaE

wow holidaes reali passes tt fast man ....
n nw it school again ...
so sian ar ..
so nw still got another 1 more month b4 e big holidaes cum along ..
these few days my mood is gettin better n better le
from sad to hapi n to even hapi
hehe =p
juz love e days tt we were tog

there is still waitin to do but nvm i noe wat will happen next de ...
evil laugh *

todae is damn borin la cognitive again
juz hate it
wan to get it over n done wif le la
n wish u could cum ltr
ok?

A sAd BiRtHdAe

no 1 will noe
no 1 ever will
not even u
mayb ...

i noe u cant go i didnt say anything but u say i tink tis, tink tt
i did not ...
u tink u stress thn u can say watever u wan to mi
u noe i sad le tt y i gave u tt attitude but u noe i cant recover tt fast
isnt todae my day
it my day u noe
MY DAY
but it seem it a normal day to u onli
a very normal 1

mayb i shouldnt hav take off
i should hav work todae
y should i care abt wat u say
after wat u say to mi on e fone
it such a wrong choice tt i make
at least if i work i can earn n nt tink so much
but nw ...
other thn sad ther nth left

n tmr i dun even feel like gg out
i juz hate tis year totally
u can go out n hav fun tmr le lo
hapi nw
HAPI MA

my whole year is spoil coz of u
laugh lo
i noe u very hapi de
RITE?

TiReD yEt HaPi

Yesterdae was quite hapi la but reali veri tired lo .....
so long nv slp well liao but ... holidae cumin le
hehe >.<
actually was gg to play pool wif sum1 de lo
but thn tt sum1 at hm slpin lo hor
dun wan say u liao la
everytime like tt de lo .....
but i watch alvin n e chipmunks liao le
n it was so cuteeeeeee .......
so much songs n dance by e chipmunks ....
before e movie went to eat pizza but it was e wrong choice lah
should hav gone to IMM to eat more choices to choose
thn ltr went IMM to buy my earpiece and loney buy his converse socks ....
after tt play pool 2 games i oso lose .. haiz =.=
sad case ar
next time dun play wif u le la ....
ei i wan more of e chipmunks songs !!!

RaNdOm

these days oso not much gg on for mi .... but these few days rainin reali hate rainy days la..
make mi feel so sleepy thn dun wan cum sch liao .... yawn*

i watch the golden compass liao so nice la =)
thn ther is part 2 duno when cum out oso =(
exspecially when u r watchin wif tt sum1 u like
e show is even nicer
LOL ....

thn all le la
some random post
Right here waiting for u you .....

NoT mYsElF

Todae was not tt great after all ....
everything was still ok till nite came by
these few he been callin mi
actually a bit sudden n surprise coz i noe i hav been nasty to him
but todae went out wif him
i oso duno wat is wrong wif mi
i tink i so unnatural when wif him
it not his problem i tink it is mine
actually when i see him at my hse staircase ther
i feelin veri hapi veri nervous veri ..... i juz can feel tt happiness inside
however when i hear him chat wif .... i cant stop takin vinegar le
thn tt coz e 360 degree turn in mi
nw u noe le ma
i juz dun wan to say out la
it veri embrassing de lo juz to say it out
n actually i wanted to hav a gd partin wif u de la
but juz cant say a nice bb to u
oso duno y
n dun ask mi
as i say i duno wat wrong wif mi le
hormones argh !!!!

SoMeThInG wRoNg WiF mI

today started wif a bad startin
actually wanted to wake up at 730 but ..... haiz
late again
next is havin a quarrel wif sum1
n i didnt mean wat i reali say
next e outin to watch enchanted went totally wrong
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actually i didnt notice wat went wrong but till sum1 told mi sumthing
but i oso notice tt it was cumin soon
gals should noe
so i guess i had mood swings
tt is y e dae went totally wrong

n those i vent my anger on
reali sry
hope u all accept it
next time i will try to control it but as u can c it gals nature
so hope u all can forgive mi

I HaTe Uuuuuuuu

i reali dont noe wat tt bitch wans
puttin up all those pics for wat
wantin mi to accept her
no way i can do tt
u can say tt i a bad person
but say whatever u wan i dun care at all


i juz wan tt sum1 attention
can u juz look at mi
i not 1 tt u can compare mi wif her
i am a total different person from her
do u get mi anot

i still controllin my emotion nw but not for long
i reali tryin veri hard to please u
i doin my best givin my best shot
but reali dun noe wat u lookin for
tell mi sumthin plz
mayb u dun feel e pain but it hurt a lot
arrows r all over mi every moment nw n then
but no 1 can c it
no 1 can help mi
it is onli u tt can treat my injuries


i duno wat how will u feel after lookin at tis
but i dun wat i write here
it all does do matter
all it matter is u onli

mayb u duno
but while writin tis down
ther lots of emotions inside of mi
angry
jealous
sad which include cryin all e while
i wan u to noe all tis
as i noe u will b readin tis


i duno when e nightmare will b over
i duno when can i wake up
i duno when can we start
i duno a lot of things
but i juz hope ther a answer to every qns

BaCk In AcTiOn

Wow it' been a long time since i post anything le.... too lazy liao lah .. hais
nw i reali find it veri hard to maintain a blog.... XD
tt 1 wk holidae to mi is like reali nth at all ... not enjoyable at all sia ... sad case ar
but ther a little fun mayb .... met a lots of new faces n i reali enjoy it .. =D
hope to get to noe all of u even better kkz .... haha
thn these few days been up till veri late like 4+ in e mornin .... n nw reali veri tired n worse thing is that i'm sick le ..
mayb my body tellin mi tt i should take a rest these few days le
tired till i cant wake up in e mornin n i even miss my test la which is quite important to mi...
but nvm le la ...
one thing which is veri important to mi nw is tt i hope some1 will give mi an ans soon ..
but i will keep on waitin n waitin for u... =) =(
hope tt i can get e ans tt i wan to get le...


PRAY HARD NW !!!

Mi, MySeLf & I

It's been a few days since i blog le .... been real tired these days lo but it holidae for mi nw le .... =] hehe
tis wk pon 2 days really cant wake up lo n todae not feelin well .. hais =.=
nth much happen these days except for thurs lo
went to hav dinner wif vic & xueli at cwp
thn cant tink of wher to go next so went to e library to slack ther
but in e end left mi & vic in e library liao
butbutbut we got take got pics lo
and tis is e 1st time took pic wif vic so surprisin tt he agree to take wif us O.O
after went to look for vic ring but he veri troublesome de lo
choose 1 small little ring nid to search for so long but in e end cant find his size so nv buy liao
as for todae slackin at hm playin games
a bit bored la but tt it lo ... hehe