durin e wkends life is sure gd ... skip one dae of work juz to enjoy life .. on fri went out to catch a midnight show what happen in Vegas it sure was a nice show but thn some1 juz fell aslp in e middle of e show =.= sian after tt went to fren hse to continue watch some shows n drinkin ar a bottle of white wine which cost $158 doesnt reali taste veri gd oso tt all i can comment sat afternoon was e time i had breakfast n e drinkin continue on e time tis time it was beer VB n sol nite time went to bugis to meet some fren n thn it was drivin to sentosa to a private club it was one 15 marina cove e place was like so so so nice even toilet have TV n sofa e pub ther was quite quiet it was veri relaxin ther had some finger food ther n i had a blue lagoon by e time we left it was early 12am n thn we went to st james power station 1st time ther was not too bad but it was damn crowded n e parkin lots r all taken up hav to go rounds before we could settle down 1st stop was e power house n i had volka all e way abt 1 cup n 2 shots n thn it was e dance floor dancin ther sure was fun wif all e music around hahaaha .... next we went to dragonfly ther it was all chinese music n i tink it not so excitin next we went to tiger beer ther if i not wrong but i tink e best is power house by tt time it was abt 330 n it was hm sweet hm lucky thing is tt i didnt hav to pay a single cent fren was drivin so no nid public transport n e best thing is tt i was not drunk no pics tis time =( hp no batt sia sad case ar .... life is great ....
last weekend i spend a very fun & interesting wk ... went drinking twice in a wk spending like mad juz on dinner alone n .... some thing tt i will not state here but lucky thing is tt i am not e 1 who is paying .... haha =) my life is going way out of hand oso work not done here n ther not reali interested in doing e work oso deadline coming on e way OMG im so dead already ....
huh what wrong onli when u nid mi thn u find mi wat do u tink i am nw it is u in e wrong not mi n u dun put e blame on mi k im not threating u or wat i hav patience too but u hav used up all my patience n it has reach its limit at least i noe sumthing thn i wont feel tt im in e wrong place but noe all u hav given mi is e all e wrong stuffs n tt all i get tt e ideas u set in mi so i can onli blame u thn i tink tt im being treated worse than a normal fren u shld noe tis i tink u better wake up f*
Days has since pass by nw it wks comin by ltr wat will it be ....
iszit feelings faded or has everything change in a blink of an eye paths different footsteps taken change our life im in my world ur in ur world drifting further till i cant feel, i cant see, i cant do anything
somehow i feel tt im numb already everything is juz fine to mi in anyway i dun feel like chasing already i feel tt tiredness has taken over mi stopping mi in my own tracks juz wanting to rest down n enjoy my own scenery
it seem tt holidaes juz pass in an eye time e nightmare is beginning to get more serious each time headache startin, not enough slp all e time, so every1 beware e tired girl is on e run again mahahahaah ..... how am i gona survive in tis situation man drying in e big desert words pounding mi argh .... dieing again once more
it all been so strange to me these days juz found out tt time goes real slow these days too slow tt i muz say sumtimes i cant reali stand it anymore iszit tt habit tt cant b maintain tt makes time goes slow mayb ba... been questionin myself alot but these days oso wat can i do i oso nt sure abt tt le all things r gettin all too confusin le juz as if they r all being blended cant b separated .... is ther any way to cure myself . . . . . still searching somewher out ther .......
i tink it reali time for mi to cool down for tis period of time le ... nid to set my goals so tt i can b on tracks .. nid ta sit back n tink wat i nid ta do steps by steps le .. tink im gg too fast le ba nid to slow down a bit le ... anyway all it takes is juz time ba i tink ... time to tink time to act all these muz b at e perfect timing ... for things in life to go on smoothly .. mi suddenly tink so much abt life sia .. strange for mi to do sumthing like tt huh ... e usual carefree mi muz change le la to a ... more serious person le ba i tink tis sentence muz b install into my mind tis instance le which is .... tink b4 u act such a simple sentence which i keeps on forgetting every nw n thn .. serious liao nid a plan le .... muahahahaha.........
strange feelings i gt these days uncontrollable dun reali feel like doin anthin these days no mood? i oso hav no ans for myself but these days i feel my heart all being cramp up cant find peace within wat can i do to heal my strange illness is ther reali a ans for tis haven been able to find one since a long time ago y cant i been able to accept anyone iszit him onli if i'm able mayb i will not b here nt knowin wat to do clueless abt wat will happen in e next minute fear tt sumthin will juz happen these duno juz leave mi hangin ther tink i'm gg die heartache any moment will i? i wana breakaway from ther stupid stuffs....
It valentine day already ... one yr has since past by .. e day i once longing it to cum by e day nw i hated e most I hated seein couple all around when it cum to tis day coz i nt fated to celebrate tis day i juz wan everyone to b e as mi even though tis may seen selfish but i noe mani who r in e same state as me will tink tis way rite? i hate him even more nw i duno even noe wat am i to him a toy to play when it free time for him? or juz some junks waitin to b thrown away? iszit e time nearin or iszit juz mi? things has since become more & more complicated n i reali hate tis
wish i could place everything in e pandora box thn nth will be left of mi to tink abt a carefree mi tt was in e past nw a different mi i dun even noe y im doin all tis wat is all tis for ....
but still ther no ans to mi own qns ... so mani qns ther but no ans to it all left is juz question marks how i hope for sumone to pick mi up from wher i fallen off is tis a dream tt is MI i duno ... how i hope i could kill him nw stab him till i could nt my hands full of his red blood i nid a knife to cure myself but tis i so stupid ...
wow holidaes reali passes tt fast man .... n nw it school again ... so sian ar .. so nw still got another 1 more month b4 e big holidaes cum along .. these few days my mood is gettin better n better le from sad to hapi n to even hapi hehe =p juz love e days tt we were tog
there is still waitin to do but nvm i noe wat will happen next de ... evil laugh *
todae is damn borin la cognitive again juz hate it wan to get it over n done wif le la n wish u could cum ltr ok?
